granted.

I miss a lot of things, like christmas and thanksgiving of last year. those were perfect days. I miss my grandma and the neighborhood I lived in when I went to springwoods elementary. I miss the night of the explosions in the sky show last year. I miss living in alabama, being a hallway away from linden, running downstairs to wake jacob up or to meet up with him so we could go down to the river. I need to find my own place in richmond. I don't mean social place, I'm speaking of an actual tangible place that I can sit and read and not be bothered by anyone. I need to better my health, eat less, work out more, get better sleeping habits, spend less time laying in my bed watching movies, and bake more. I haven't baked at all since moving down here. I miss that, too. I really am very happy these days there are just always situations, people, missed/forgotten emotions on my mind. I need to be able to rely on myself. I'm learning to take things day by day, even hour by hour; and to be honest, I'm learning that every situation, every relationship, every "thing" is fleeting. my heart is just so guarded now, but I suppose things will fall into place eventually. I'm just not sure how patient I really am.